Dirty Laundry

"Breathe in " I tell myself some minutes after I had a panic  attack today. I have never had any near-death experience,  all I know about  it is from the victim's recounting. 
"I feel like I have been given a second chance" is the common denominator about this experience. I sure didn't see God speaking or rebuking me, I very well, didn't see the devil at work ; poking his minions with that thing and  breathing fire on the newcomers. What I saw was my life flashing very fast before my eyes. Swear down, I saw myself walking down the aisle dressed in white.(maybe I shouldn't get ahead of my self. no?)

******  sloting in Kelly Rowlands "dirty laundry"*******

What are those things you regret doing? or those things you wish you hadn't done. Right, I sense you thinking hard, reaching into the deep recess of your mind  searching. One thing I can guarantee is that if you experienced what I went through, it wouldn't be difficult to do the dirty laundry. One thing I did regret doing was watching the movie canyons. Don't know whether it is an adaptation of the book " 50 shades of grey". Another thing I'm sure of is  that my last memories colored by christain grey habits would earn me the most gruesome afterlife.

Just Maybe

Watching  the movie "curious case of Benjamin Butler"  on tv  and the part that I adore the most is where they played back scenes leading to the accident of his babe; the dancer, Just maybe if the cab man hadn't stopped for coffee, just maybe the lady hadn't forgotten her coat, just maybe the shop attendant hadn't forgotten to pack the lady's order, maybe his babe would have been the successful dancer she always wanted instead of opening a dance studio to teach kids how to dance.

Just maybe